I am a target. Most folks have no idea what this means but for certain marked individuals do understand and that's the problem. There is not enough support for this subject. I want people who are either targets or people that can volunteer support by giving advice , help anyway possible for those of us who are targets to help us try to think out of the box on how to get these dangerous and frightening people to stop. There are not enough answers out there if you have anything to bring to the table please help us: Here is my story: Hello today I will cal myself Gingirl. I am an older woman and married not for love but for safety and insurance purposes. I still love him though. I always will. Just to go through my life in a few sentences is difficult how do you put a long story into a few words and have people feel what you felt or thought its almost impossible to do. I am a loner always have been always will be. I learned to like it. Friends and caring for people is dangerous to my heart. I am a rebel kind of. I don't always do things the correct way but life always has a way of correcting them right anyways. Its the fighting against the wind that is so hard to do anymore as I get older. So this story doesn't or isn't going towards me being this totally blameless or innocent person I bet I will loose lots of readers. This is not a plea for money. Its not plea for anything but because I am such a loner I am easily to be targeted and I have no recourse but to shrivel up and die. That's just not my style. I fight aback and I fight hard. Al my life I have been a fighter not with fists but a survivor of many things and times in my life that I should have quit but I am a very determined person. I am showing this by writing and publishing this on social media. I was a angry child I was made fun of and ridiculed all my life. I was teased by girls , boys sometimes I swear the animals were talking about me. I would cry but in the end after Kindergarten through 10th grade I got more thick skin than a alligator or elephant if they have thick skin. I felt no pain I closed off from the time I was young till I had my children and learned about loving something else. Now I have that love for my kids and others I have learned to open up and give things, people chances to be in my heart but overtime I am betrayed I close up again I can't help it its natural. Well were am I going with this. How can I tell this story and get people to believe me is going to be the hardest thing to do because at times I think am I sure is this really happening to me. Am I making the right decision and what is going to happen in the future. I live with a 78 year old sweetheart of a man. We married because both of our spouses past away a month apart. I put a cleaning ad out and met him and was taken care of since. I lost my husband 16 years of marriage , my home , my life ended. My daughter found him dead at home on her birthday having a skating party. He went home and died. We were without him and things got grim. I got rearranged and got whiplash and was unable to work or care for my home I did the best I could as I am a survivor. I had no help , remember I am a loner so I had no one to go to and get help period! I put an ad out on CL and was given a blessing of my husband we will cal him Bob. Bob is 78 years old. A veteran Vietnam, chef medical retired. Retired volunteer firefighter, volunteer police officer, councilor for drug addicted persons with families, He is a great man. He is a giving man. He is a fair man.He lost his wife of 35 year marriage 30 days after I lost my husband. Immediately he gave me money and help from the first day he met me. I was so grateful. HE understood I wasn't in love with him he was not online with me but I had a daughter tale needed to be raised proper and so he did it. He has been one of the most loving understanding men I have ever been with. I left walked out on our foreclosed home after living there for over 13 years. Sold